Thursday, May 31, 2012

making goals

half way through the year... haha making some new goals.
1. save and become a wiser spender.
2. stick to a budget.
3. read more...just for fun.
4. establish a exercise schedule...and keep it up.
5. be more crafty.
6. serve more. 
7. this list is getting really long.
mainly i've just decided that i need to work on things that will only make me a better and a more well-rounded person. i'm trying to be more open with my feelings and more confident in myself. so i am taking the first step and writing/typing it all down. 
go.

Friday, May 25, 2012

like one

i think anyone who is engaged or married can agree with me when I say that when you aren't with the one you love, your life just doesn't seem complete. But as soon as i am with sam again, my life just gains a certain warmth and wholeness. i also feel the same way about the gospel. when i neglect my daily scripture study, forget to pray or just am not choosing the right my life seems incomplete and off. Returning to the scriptures and striving to live right brings the same happiness i get when i am with sam. and...soon i'll get to have that forever.

Sunday, May 20, 2012

In awe...

I am constantly in awe of everything I have been blessed with, and I often feel undeserving of it all. This past weekend I was able to spend I'm California with Sam's family. I love them so much. They are the most hilarious, kind and generous group of people I know. They love to laugh and just be with one another. I got to eat the best food this weekend...my favorite was probably the short rib...it melted in my mouth. I also got to participate in a flash mob. Yeah...a FLASH MOB. it was unreal and such a rush. I love it. I also got to go to an amazing dinner overlooking the beach. The mashed potatoes were also amazing... I visited the LA temple and then went to the reception and party of my life. Everyone ended it by dancing all night till they couldn't feel their feet. Gahhhhhh it was amazing. And the best part was I got to be with Sam for all of it. He held my hand. Told me...or laughed at me when I didn't say things quiet enough. He was my partner for it all. And everytime I was nervous...I looked at Sam and was fine. I live him and the joy he brings to my life. I couldn't ask for anyone more perfect for me.





Wednesday, May 2, 2012

this little thing i call love. love to sam mckay.

sooo. the whole marriage deal had been in the works for a while. we set the date august 20th and then decided to look for a ring. a little backwards...but we are the best and the cutest and so it's fine.
okay let me just back up and say how much i love sam mckay. he is the greatest thing that has ever happend to me. sam is the perfect gentleman. he always opens my door, buys my dinner, and walks me home safely. sam is also everyone's best friend. as soon as you meet him he will try and get to know everything about you. he sincerely cares about everyone around him. sam is also hilarious and has introduced me to greatness like...the community. check it out. we watch modern family together. i love that. sam is also an honorable priesthood holder. i have never asked anyone but my dad for a blessing, but i knew i could ask sam. and so did my roommates. he is there spiritually for everyone. and he is always doing things for others expecting nothing in return. sam is the hardest worker i know. and has the philosophy that one should always do their best and do the job right the first time. he has taught me so much and makes me want to be my best self everyday. i could go on but i'll focus on the engagement.
everyone in our wards knew we were engaged we were just waiting on a ring. sam had talked with my parents about marrying me and then we set out to find a ring. final store we went to the lady was a little crazy "yours, ours, the stone." sam found the perfect ring, we got it sized and then...i knew he was going to propose soon but... sam didn't waste anytime.
sunday sam came to my house for family dinner. it was the best, he learned i was a very chunky baby and is okay that our babies will also be fat.
monday...didn't see sam cause he had "sooo much work to do." he lied but has been forgiven. he made plans with me to see me tuesday, i was going to drive up and we'd get dinner and just spend time together.





tuesday... tuesday. the first of may, i drove to sam mckay's house. i pulled up and his brother will ran up and hugged me and then his brother daniel. his dad came out and then sam did. he said we had to go up and move some things around at his grandpa's place. the land. as we left his dad was like "you can stay here with us if you like." i'm really glad i didn't. as we were driving sam remembered he had to check on rosie his brother elijah's horse. so we went there. all the hay was fine.. so we sat and filled up his water trough. apparently sam was patting his pocket the whole time.. i didn't notice. we finally were heading up to huntsville and sam called his brother isaac. isaac and his girlfriend bailey were on a "date" up at the land, and sam was just checking on them and checkin on the work he had up there. all was still good. we got closer and he called again. i was wondering why he was so paranoid about it but wasn't stressin. we pulled up to the land and passed isaac and bailey coming out. sam and i pulled up to the house parked and as we are walking up to the door, sam muffles my face into his armpit. this is normal behavior so i wasn't really suspicious yet. when we got to the door he kissed me and told me he loved me...he was shaking and i was like...oh my gosh. he opened the door and a table was set up for a candle light dinner. i'm just like oh my gosh sam... we walked to the table and he told me i needed to sit down. as i did we just held each other as he told me how he loves me and how i have helped him become a better person and find direction that was missing in his life. it was the sweetest thing. he told me i was the most amazing woman he had ever met and he wanted me in his life forever. he then got on one knee and asked me to marry him. i was crying and said yes. then hugged him and said yes yes yes yes yessss. he put the ring on my finger, still slightly shaking and we hugged and kissed. smiled and said i love you. he asked me if i was hungry and ready for dinner and i was just like... um not really any more. so we just talked for a while. took pictures. finally sam said he was hungry so we ate our beautiful dinner and talked about life together. i was perfect. we called sam's grandparents while we were there and his grandpa was like sam are you in ecstasy? hahah yes, we both were. sam means the world to me and i loved that right before dinner he reminded me we needed to bless the food. he puts god first. i love sam mckay and consider him to be the biggest blessing i have in this life. he's my forerrrr and errr. soooo yeah we are engaged to be married!